Carly,

I have missed you all these days. I have been longing to hear from you but I could not get to you. I have just been reading your two mails: the first one (Good night) and the second where you are hoping that I am fine. I'd like to inform you that my hip has not been good. I called my doctor and he has booked me for tomorrow at 11:30am...with the MRI taken and the x-rays, I hope that he will do his best. Actually the diagnosis is clear but I am just worried because I have to travel and I do not want to be surprised in the middle of important commitments. Otherwise I am fine and I walk now without a limp. It is just so hard to go up the stairs...and for a little while I am sleeping in the downstairs bedroom...the house-keeper does help me alot but she only comes part time from 3:00pm-6:00pm though at times she delays until 7:00pm. She is a very sweet lady...almost maternal.

This morning was wonderful. The Sun came out and the brightness of the day made me just feel happy. I love walking out after the sauna and whirlpool (you already know that I love water) because I heat my water real high and then after the 'dunking' I just sweat as if I have been doing exercises. It is very enjoyable to sit there and just enjoy the gushes of water running all over you. I sometimes imagine us together in the pool. I took a short walk around the compound went to the streets just to get the feel but did not do so much.

Sometimes it gets so lonely when no one visits...I used to bury myself in the books or watch some movie, play music and go to bed and that was just enough. Now I have an addiction. I am addicted to you and there is no medicine. Actually I am so hooked that I do not even want any medicine. I just love you.  When I think of you, I call you by name: 'Carly' and I imagine you turning and taking a look. Sometimes I imagine that we are cuddling together covered in a light shawl watching cartoons. I love cartoons...Tom and Jerry get me cracking. I love popcorns too...with butter (my mother wonders why I cannot get fat with all the popcorns that I eat) I just have a section in the cabinet for them...five minutes in the micro-wave and am ready. What do you like sweetheart? 

I love butter-pecan ice-cream, too...I just enjoy going to movies that at one point it seems I ran out of what to watch since I had seen them all. I do not drink or smoke but I dont mind those who do...do you drink or smoke (it wont change my addiction to you)? I like evening walks during summer and fall...I jog early morning and play pick-and-play soccer at the nearby park in West Chester. I am not very athletic but I have moments out. I love dancing very very much. I am a good dancer. In D.C. I used to go to Zanzibar for a dance. Then I heard that another place was opened in Baltimore close to the shore...I loved the place too. I am good in lingala dance though people get surprised about that(?!). I still believe in whole-milk and certainly NOT skimmed for me, may be you will begin buying that...dont ask me to drink it (hehe). I love mandazi, mahamri* ...rice made with cocoanut...pilau*  (and I can make it for you!) I wanna make you know that when a woman allows a man to spoil her, it is a sign to him that he matters for her. It is enjoyable to make one happy.

Beware, I am unpredictable. I will play tricks on you...I will surprise you (pleasantly)...I like scaring (just a little) nothing traumatic. I do not like making my darling anxious...either in fear or making you guess where I am, what am doing, whether am happy...and I am never ashamed to tell you that am sorry when I am wrong.  I let pride rule me so many times...you will help me get over that; I like getting out so much...may be you will manage our finances; I love to be decent and well dressed...may be you will teach me to like some torn jeans...can you imagine...I wore jeans last when I was in high school! I love white sneakers (K-Swiss, Reebok, Adidas, Nike) but must be all white and no mixture of colors (I do not like things that are too showy on me)...I do not mind my darling being so...I let you be what you want but allow you to dress me and decide what is best fitting for me...(there goes my pride again).

Generally I fear being misunderstood...and consequently it is hard  for me to correct you because I don't wanna hurt you. You will help me do this...I am sure, but feel free to correct me. I do not talk very much but I am very funny and playful...I do not know how this fits but I wanna let you know that I love you. I really do.  For dinner today I ate Tuna Casserole, a glass of milk and home-fries. I took jello for my dissert with butter scotch syrup for topping. I do not like brocoli but the lady says 'you've got to eat your greens Barney', sometimes I feel as if she is my mother...and that aint funny! I just dont wanna hurt her, but I hate the damn stuff...well, it is not a big deal...I just wanna share with you little things I do.

 I forgot to tell you that I did not floss this morning. I just dont floss most of the time...I brush my teeth after meals...except in the morning when I do it before bathing (or shower). I have only one black underwear (the rest are all white! Gotcha)...my T-Shirts are all white too. Dont ask me how many pairs of shoes I have...I tell you honestly, I have no idea. To give you just the clue: I keep them according to color and type (whether sneakers, sandals, boots, mocasines, leather, etc)...mostly I dress up...except for Fridays (when at home and weekends).

I love swimming and water volley-ball (in the swimming pool at a local club)...I love new good cars...but I do not like sport-cars...they are very showy and gives me the impression that one needs to be recognized. I love calm colors both in dressing and of my cars...I love siemese cat ... and German Shepherd (because they do not shed their fur...and they can run around the wide compound so that I do not have to walk them everyday)...I love flowers and I even plant them...I love tomatoes and plant them around the yard during spring...  I think I'd  love watching the way you walk...the way you eat...I like looking at you changing your clothes...or beautifying yourself after shower...I like taking shower with you. I like singing to you out of tune...and laughing with you. I like seeing you eating something while watching TV from the couch. I like looking at your toes and making fun of them. I love the feeling that you love me too.

Barney